Everything in me is screaming “DON’T POST THIS!“
I’m stuck staring at a blank piece of paper, unable to create a coherent sentence. I think, “What am I so scared of?”
It took a minute.
At first, I said to myself, “I’m not scared of anything. I can do whatever I want to do. It’s not fear that’s holding me back. Of course, I’m not scared. Not me. It must be something else.”
Well, that was a lie.
I am scared.
I’m scared of
what you think of me
creating crappy art
pretending to be someone I’m not
never finding my purpose
losing my mind
losing people I love
not being perfect
showing you my insecurities
you not liking what I have to say
never living up to my expectations
never creating anything that matters
dying without having used my gifts and talents
of admitting that I’m scared.
I am scared, but I must GO THERE in my vulnerability and create anyway.
Here’s to the brave ones who wish to create boldly, but are too scared of jumping in. I’ll go first.
Be scared. But you must jump anyway!